Wish I could be better (Patreon)
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After all this time, I could get used to the fact that it's a never ending cycle where apathy somehow gets to you.
I am a very empathic person, and everything that happens around me I pass through myself, trying to feel the feelings. This is how I live, this is how I draw.
For the most part, I'm just a person who draws funny pictures. Some of them resonate with others, some do not. But it is always the result of my emotions and state of mind. I try to make it visible in my works, and I try to make these emotions colorful and positive.
I really want to start making good art for you again, Iriska is really looking forward to the continuation of the story and really wants you to get to know her better!
I catalyze emotions into the form of art, but right now there is nothing positive around me.
Honestly, I don’t know where to get this resource inside myself now.
I tried to take a break for a couple of weeks, and I would really like to say that it helped, that I regained my strength and am ready to do a bunch of new art! But that would be a lie.
But I read every of your messages! Thank you very much for such great support! Sometimes it seems to me that I do not deserve this, because globally my problems and experiences are so insignificant and small. But I am very grateful that you still found words of support for me. This is what keeps me going.
Today I tried to forcefully draw some study sketches. Even such simple things are given now very hard. It's like I'm losing all my ability and skill. I'm scared of this thought. I need to do something
Rest doesn't do me any good. And I feel that I can't keep you waiting any longer.
Therefore, through the force I will draw what I can