🍂 BEGINNINGS & ENDINGS (Patreon)

Hello everyone~ 💙

Hope you're all doing well and that you've had a great weekend! 🌝 I have some boring news but also some really exciting news, yay! And some general updates.
Patreon is currently in the process of going through changes that I have no control over and I just wanted to give you a little heads up about what I know:

🔵 COMMUNITY PAGE BEING REMOVED

The community posts/member posts tab is being replaced by something called community chats. Not sure at all how these chats are going to work but I doubt I will use it much, I encourage everyone to join my discord server for free and chat there, instead!
The biggest change will involve where LUNAR patrons post their requests. The best option moving forward will be a monthly-LUNAR-patron post where you will leave your requests in the comments instead. Best case scenario this would mean I complete the requests on the same month which would be AMAZING!

🔵 TAGS AND COLLECTIONS

Tags I have used a lot during my five years on Patreon to help my patrons navigate between all my different posts. Currently they don't seem to work for desktop but they work great on the app. That's all I know lol
Recently Patreon introduced a new feature called Collections which I have been getting started with organizing. It should help find whatever you're looking for - sorted into specific group performance conent and variety content. I have not created collections for all the different survival and competition shows I have reacted to since they are all linked on my About page, same for BL & dating shows. You can find the Collections tab on my Patreon page.

That's all I know at the moment. I may make more announcements about these changes once they've happened. Now on to the changes that are more related to yours truly:

🔵 NEW NEW MOON POLL

I'm turning the poll available to for ALL patrons into a monthly MV poll - starting next year, maybe sooner! The poll will let you guys vote for what MVs for me to react to on YouTube. Some months you will have the option to vote for specific comebacks, some months different groups/solo artists, etc! Winner(s) will be posted the following month's new moon 🌚 It's a work in progress but I think it could be fun. Let me know what you think!
I want to do this because it would be a more light hearted way to check out comebacks I've missed. Right now there's a lot of groups and idols I don't react to their comebacks because I'm so behind on them, but I need to get over that and realize it's okay to jump back in here and there. I'm thinking probably around 4 MV reactions in one video. Maybe more, maybe less. Depends on how I feel.

🔵 MONTHLY REACTIONS

My monthly Patreon reactions have been reduced because I took on more than I could handle. I will try to react to the shows I removed but I can't promise anything. If there's something you really want me to react to then please consider upgrading to a LUNAR tier and make a request. I want to and need to spend more energy on things that I prioritize reacting to and that a majority of my patrons most want to see.

🔵 DELAYED MV REACTIONS & TMI

Something I tried to do when I started reacting to TXT's MVs was to pressure myself into doing so somewhat regularly which has not really worked. They just have so much content for every era that I really want to react to before moving on to the next!
I think this system would work and it would be easier to do if I didn't get so fucking INVESTED. That must be a big part of it, as you can understand if you've seen my reactions to their MVs and my FIRST LISTENs.
I have thought about it a lot and compared it to when I went through all the eras of ENHYPEN for example, starting with I-LAND, then their debut and each comeback era - allowing myself time to check out as much of their content as I want for every era. I did so because I wanted to without promising any sort of timeline. I think this is how I make my content in the best way. 

I want to do the same for my TXT journey instead of including their albums in polls where they would always rank high and act as a deadline for me to react to their comebacks faster. It has just added a lot of stress and pressure for me and I don't want it to ruin my TXT journey experience which is why I need to stop promising things I cannot keep. It's my own fault for doing so, but I did it because I thought maybe it would be a good system that could help speed things along in a healthy way! Turns out it's not good for my creative process or whatever I should call it. It's only related to MV/YouTube reactions that make me feel this way.

I understand that this might disappoint some of you but I need to do it my way and I'm sorry that I can't give any timeline regarding this. I tried to be more structured because I wanted to, but it turns out it didn't work for me. It would be easier if I could be more like a machine sometimes alas I am not 🌝 I'm just someone who puts a lot of pressure on myself until I crumble AND IT NEEDS TO STOP. I love TXT and I want to enjoy this instead of feeling stressed about it all the time - so I need to do this. I hope you can understand.
This is not only related to TXT but other groups and reactions as well.

This is really something I need to do in general because it feels impossible to take a break, relax and unwind when I can't escape this feeling of stress. I want to find a new balance. You guys are always so understanding and I am so grateful for that. I understand that you want to know when I will react to certain things and I can provide somewhat of an answer for most reactions, but not all. Right now I feel like I keep disappointing everyone by not keeping my promises, especially because so many of you really enjoy my TXT reactions which is amazing! I just need to get better at dealing with the pressure I put on myself. Today as I'm typing this I signed up for therapy at betterhelp.com which I've wanted to try for a while and I finally did it! It's really expensive but I think it could be worth to try. If anyone else reading this also wants to try it then I got a link that gives us both one week for free so use it if you want! 🌝 https://www.betterhelp.com/rpc/d8610ba6cf02c8cc-1-06?utm_campaign=referral_reminder&utm_source=email-camp&utm_term=eg_ref_rem_1.tpl

Wow I wrote a lot. Sorry and thank you if you read everything, thank you if you didn't! Let me know if you have any questions. I'll see you in my videos!
Love you all! 💙