From Ben and then From Anna (Patreon)

I cannot figure out a way to start this post, as everything I am typing feels tired, over said, another excuse and stupid.

The past few months I have been doing okay mental health wise after my Bipolar episode.  After Anna and I got sick, I was hit with another wave of an episode. I haven't had the clarity to figure out the best way to convey what I am feeling because at the end of the day, I don't think that it will make sense. However, saying nothing was and is the absolute wrong answer.

When I am at the low point with my Bipolar, the only thing that I can focus on is that I am letting you down. Not meeting the schedule that I am creating for myself, and then hating myself for various different reasons. If the situation wasn't as severe as it was, I would have acted differently. When it is severe, I get to a place where it feels like saying anything will make it worse on myself. It is selfish and not fair to do that.  And that is why I am writing this, even if its tired, over said, another excuse and stupid.

-Ben

Hi, It's Anna.

Thank you for reading. In the coming days I will be posting Oshi no Ko 13, MHA 20 and 21 and Kizumonogatari Part 2. After those are released, we will be working at a pace that is best for Ben, putting out things as we get them done; therefore, we are not going to make a schedule or promises that may be unable to be fulfilled. Thank you for reading Ben's words.

-Anna