I was diagnosed with COPD. (Patreon)

I was debating with myself whether I should share this information or not, but I concluded that if I was on the other end, I would like to know.

COPD means Chronic obstructive pulmonary disease, which usually affects smokers. I never smoked, however, so... unlucky, I guess? 

It's a degenerative disease that affect the lungs and can't be cured. It's possible to slow the process, but it all depends on the severity of the case.

Usually, most people with COPD won't live more than 10 years after diagnosis. Often, they won't live more than 5. Sometimes, they don't live more than 2 years.

Even if I got another 20 years, though... I am 26 now, so yeah...

I still need to make more exams to confirm it, since apparently Chronic Bronchitis can look very similar on x-rays. I need to do a spirometry, but it is in two weeks, and the wait is making me way more anxious than ever. Luckily, I have been treating my anxiety, so I am managing to avoid panic attacks.

Chronic Bronchitis is nowhere near as fatal, so I still have hope. I have a couple symptoms that suggests that it is something more serious, though.

I am honestly lost, and my anxiety won't ever allow me to stay calm until the next exams. This means that once again I can't promise consistency on my art. It's really difficult to breathe, even with the inhaler, so I can't really do those exercises to deal with anxiety.

I needed to let you guys know, even if it's not 100% confirmed, because I am honestly in my worst mental state right now.

Even if it is confirmed, though, I will continue making art until my last day, and I would appreciate if you guys could keep supporting me until there. Honestly, I never needed it more than I do now.

I won't bring this info to twitter or Instagram until I have the final word from my doctor, but again, I had to let you guys know because I can't promise I will be too active for now.

Once all the exams are made, if it isn't just Chronic Bronchitis, I will publish my exams and stuff here so you guys can verify the veracity of the diagnosis. 

I still hope it is just Bronchitis.

Thanks for always being here. <3