To The Person Who Stole All of My Content (Patreon)

Good afternoon,

I'm not sure who you are, or if you're even still here but if you are, I hope you'll take the time to read this. You might not know this, but I started doing this last summer to help pay for vet bills for my beloved cat, Mittens, who was sick at the time. I was recovering from surgery and wasn’t able to work for the time being. I was anxious and depressed and scared of what was going to happen to my cat if I couldn’t afford the procedures and the medications he needed. I started making adult erotic audio content again and posting it on Patreon to help pay for those bills and to help give myself a sense of purpose in my day while I was off work.

I was on GWA once before, many years ago, and I left for a plethora of reasons but one, a big one, was because I felt so ashamed and dirty posting the things I was recording. I felt like something was wrong with me for liking the things I liked and I got freaked out and I ran. I’ve healed a lot over the last 7 years, I’ve grown, I’ve matured, and I’ve realized that there’s no shame in this, only love and only joy. Sex and sexuality are a natural, fun, beautiful part of life and for yearssss, the majority of my adult life, I shamed myself for having the kinks I had. It took YEARS to come to terms with my sexuality but wow, was it liberating once I finally did… No more nights laying in bed feeling guilty after masturbating, no more hiding my kinks from my partner, no more “no, I’m not going to listen to or watch that because it’s ‘bad’.” Just… enjoyment, freedom and love.

Do you know how many messages I get in a month, in a week, sometimes even in a day - from people who tell me they have so much shame, so much fear and confusion and discomfort with themselves for liking what they like? Do you know how many people have said that it’s thanks to content creators like myself that they’ve been able to embrace their own kinks and their own sexuality in ways that allow them to sleep easily at night knowing there’s nothing “wrong” with them? I’ll tell you, it’s a lot. That alone is why when I went back to work full time (48+ hours a week) I kept doing this. That’s why when my sweet little Mittens got better and I paid his bills off, I kept doing this. That’s why when Mittens died this year, rather suddenly, and took a piece of my heart with him, I kept doing this. That’s why in the midst of some ongoing personal struggles, I continue to do this. Because it helps make me feel good and it helps make other people feel good, too.

Do you know how many hours I put into writing my scripts, recording my audios, editing them, adding sound effects, and posting them? How many hours have gone into simple things like making special features for different tier members to make the money they spend to be here worthwhile? Do you know how much time I’ve spent trying to come up with new ideas and new features and new give aways and new tiers and new events to keep things fresh for the beautiful people who work HARD to earn their pay and decide to share some of that money with me to support me, to support this lovely community, and get access to extra content? Do you know what THEY had to sacrifice each month to get this content? Not everyone has $5, $10, $20+ to “throw away” every month. Some people are making calculated decisions in order to continue accessing this community and this content because it has proven to be valuable to them (to those people: I love you!)…

I wonder how much time and effort, sweat and tears, heart and soul you put into scraping my entire Patreon account and making every single thing I had done available to anyone who wanted it, for free, for nothing? I’m pretty sure I know the answer to that.

Now listen, I’m not a money-grubbing asshole. I have created and shared HUNDREDS of audios now, many of which are available for free on GWA/Soundgasm/Whyp.it, but a nice big handful of them are indeed behind the Patreon paywall because, like many others, I have bills to pay. I have mouths to feed. I have goals and aspirations and student debt and a line of credit I’m trying to pay off so that maybe one day I can buy a house or my husband and I could buy a second car and stop carpooling each other everywhere, I’m working 48+ hours a week at my full time job and I’m giving so many hours of my free time to this. And I’m not complaining, I LOVE doing it. I’ve never worked harder for or on anything in my entire life. But you… took all of it? Every single thing I had done and posted (including my photos??? Which I post so infrequently and only for a specific tier because despite my confident act, I’m pretty self conscious AND pretty scared of being recognized and having my life fall apart as a result…) and you just used some program to rip it all down and slap it on your website.

Hmmm.

I have a big heart, I like to think I’m kind and open-minded and forgiving and non-judgemental. I’m not out here trying to scam anyone or rip anyone off. I’m just trying to support myself and my family and make a better life for us AND help people like yourself take a deep, relaxing breath and just… unwind. I want to help people de-stress. Help them recognize that their kinks and their fantasies and their desires aren’t wrong: they’re natural and they’re okay. I try and lead with love and light, you know? To make decisions that I know will empower me and the people around me, decisions that will raise my vibrations and subsequently the vibrations of everyone I come into contact with…

This, discovering that someone (I think a Tier 1+ subscriber, as they have all of those posts on that website) had taken all of my content in the blink of an eye and just put it on some seedy website where anyone could access it (a total slap in the face to everyone here, including myself) and putting my anonymity and safety at risk in the process (I’m pretty recognizable due to my tattoos, it’s one thing to let a certain number of people have access via a tier benefit, it’s another to have those photos uploaded to a freely accessible, seedy website like yours)… Damn, that hurts. I know it isn’t personal to you, because you’ve posted MANY other artists’ content without their permission as well… But for me? Yeah. 

This must be nice for you, huh? Tons of traffic on your ad-littered website, no regard for the effort and care and time that artists like myself have put into their content, just a quick press of a button I’m sure and you’ve taken everything we have made and put it up there on your website. My goodness, I’ll tell you, it’s very personal to me, to us.

I had to pay hundreds of dollars to get the DMCA’s help, and it’s a nightmare and a headache to even get my stuff from your site off of Google - let alone off of your actual site. The DMCA are familiar with you, they’ve advised me you often ignore their requests. Shocker. All I can do now is hope that that’s good enough to keep my community here alive and to keep things moving in a way that it continues to be worthwhile for me to put in the hours and the money and the blood, sweat and tears (and if you think I’m kidding, I’m absolutely not - this isn’t easy work, and it’s not without pain and emotional difficulty at times that I create it) that I have been. I’ll practice my mindfulness, I’ll meditate and I’ll journal when I’m feeling the way I’m feeling now which is angry, and scared because having my photos out there like that terrified me. Having everything I had done out there like that, hurt me. It’s taking a lot of effort to not hate you. That’s how I know it’s not personal for you because you don’t care but boy, do I. I care so fucking much about all of this.

I just wanted you to know that what you did sucked, and it hurt, and it flew in the face of every single person here who set aside a bit of money to get access to this content and support me and this community. If I knew who you were, I’d send you this message directly before reporting you to Patreon and to GWA/other content creators and blocking you. I’d save everyone else the time of having to read this and tell you directly but alas, you can maintain your anonymity and I cannot. Funny how that works.

I hope you’re happy, and that what YOU do brings you the kind of joy and fulfillment that what I do brings me, and maybe one day you’ll think: wow, if someone did this to ME… I wouldn’t like it! And maybe that empathy will cause you to stop and maybe you’ll put this time and effort into doing something that doesn’t hurt people the way you hurt me. Maybe not. Just something to think about, I suppose.

Take care,

Kate.

PS - To anyone curious about the removal of many of my old photo and video posts as well as the discontinuation of posting any new photos/videos for the time being - this was the antagonist for all of that. Thanks for understanding!