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I am in the shower bending my arms behind me 
Reaching 
Trying to wash my back 
I think of you because I wish you were there to wash it for me
I guess maybe thinking of someone when you’re in the shower usually looks different than that 
I think of you in that way too
When I listen to music 
They aren’t lyrics anymore 
I hear you talking to me 
I hear me talking to you 
The meaning of everything has been hijacked 
I do something that makes me feel proud of myself 
I think of you because I know you would be proud of me too 
You aren’t there to see it but I want to make you proud anyway 
I’m delusional in that way 
Someone does something idiotic 
Says something stupid as hell 
I know you would hate it too 
We despise a lot of the same things 
Someone says something fucked up to me 
Grossly misunderstands who I am 
I know you would never speak to me like that  
In a way that’s enough
I see the t-shirt I wore the last time I saw you in my drawer 
And I’m not sure why but 
I haven’t worn it since 
I would say I can’t live without you 
But I haven’t even had the opportunity to
You are everywhere