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I can’t stop crying and my plants are dying
That makes it sound like I’m unhappy but I’m not
I’m everything everywhere all at once
But I haven’t seen the movie so maybe I’m just lost
I once thought I knew which direction to go
But a cat in a tree got inside my mind and laughed at my certainty
Can’t shake this feeling that nothing is meant for me
But see that’s not even true
I can’t even write a poem without contradicting myself
Because the truth is
I have a hard time taking me seriously
Change my mind 12 times before breakfast
And even then
I find it all quite odd
Am I seeking and finding
Or am I just slowly dying
I think perhaps both
And perhaps I am a special girl in this beautifully tragic world
Or maybe I am a tragically beautiful concept that can’t quite be fully realized
Or maybe I am just another person that can’t get out of their own way
I haven’t been sleeping well
But you might not be able to tell
I would try to explain but I don’t think it’s sane
And I’m just too tired
Forgive me