❤️ Attempting to Make Friends Like a Real Boy ❤️ (Patreon)

Felt moved today because my neighbours invited me to have tea with them. I'm an anti-social moron, so someone showing a sincere interest in getting to know me is... slightly uncomfortable, but also so sweet and just nice.

I wish my oddness was cute, but it's really not. It's not like "oh, she's so quirky". It's like, no, she's... a little odd. But it's okay, my heart's in the right place... I hope. I'm not a doctor or a valuable member of society. But, hey, you can't have everything.

Hopefully the point is... we're all weird. Whether we're social, anti-social, somewhere in the middle - we've all got quirks, we all fear rejection, and all we can do is try to navigate other people as best we can. I legitimately felt really emotional all day because of this interaction. I was like "ahhh, I don't want you to know me, but maybe I do. Maybe I do, really."

If you can relate, I hear you. Being known is hard. I have to psych myself up sometimes just to go to the supermarket. Not because I find shopping hard, not because I can't be bothered to go, simply because I don't want to be near other people - because then they can see me, and I often don't want that. 

So, small steps. Always small steps. It's the best way. But just remember that we're all freaks, in our own way. Give yourself a chance.