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So, someone I knew killed themselves this week and it got me thinking about other people who might be contemplating suicide.

First of all, if you are thinking about suicide, I am so sorry that you feel so terrible. 

Second of all, I know I don't know you or your circumstances, but I really do think you have every reason to keep on going. 

And thirdly, I fully appreciate that life is exhausting and unfair and it makes things feel pointless, but there really is so much more to it.   

Things might be awful now, the worst they've ever been, but life is fickle, and things really do change. And more importantly, we change. Whether it's our feelings, our situations, or even our outlooks - change is always possible. But only if we stay.

 Again, I fully appreciate that I don't know you, but please, please don't give up!

I've had similar feelings in life, and at the time, I really did believe there was no point in carrying on, but I was wrong. My friend was wrong. And I can't even imagine how much his family would give to tell him that he was wrong, and that he was loved.

Please listen to this next part because it's the most important: 

*You deserve every chance of enjoying your life, but you can only do that if you stay.*   

Please keep on because there's so much good that could happen. There's so much good that you can be and do. And you deserve to see that through. 

I cannot know what's led you to feel so awful, and I am incredibly sorry that you have to go through this. But please know that this isn't the end. You have so much more to come.    

So, if you're feeling like you might do something to yourself, please:

Stop, take a breath, and don't do anything rash.   

You have the time to make your life better. I promise you.

Please, please stay. 

Best wishes,

Tea

Comments

Gnot

Sorry to hear about this person passing. I hope this message can help others in this situation too 💛

Wolfe

Thank you for this, I wish I’d had someone like you a few years ago. Stuff like this seriously helps.

Viltaryn

Thank you honestly it’s the tiniest things that keep me going I suppose...and your audios are on that list. Enjoying the little things are worthwhile💙

Blindluck92

I lost my cousin this way. I've never felt that way about my own life, but... thank you for saying all of this, Tea. It's a hard, ugly topic, so really, thank you.

lordbutano

Don't know how close you were with this person but i'm deeply sorry to hear something like that happened. And thank you very much for such kind words, as a person that has contemplated this option more than once, thank you kindly

June

Thank you and I’m really sorry

Darkai

Thanks for saying this Tea, I aways do my best to help people who are felling that way. I personally have been through many rough patches so far but I know how my action would effect hurt others and that's not something I can do.

Coby-O

I’m very sorry this happened to you Tea. Wishing you and other affected the best recovery. EDIT: For anyone who is going through these thoughts, take this from a guy who almost drove himself off a bridge, hung himself, shot himself, and prayed to God to kill him in his sleep, there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. Don’t give up! Life will get better for you and will make you a much stronger person once you get through these horrific thoughts and feelings. I promise you that.

Anonymous

Oh God that sucks, I hope you're handling it well

Bear

As someone who has walked the through the Midnight Garden between life and death, I can say with certainty that things can and do get better. The pain that drives many to make that final decision is often transitory, even when it feels like it will never change and never get better. I don't claim to know your circumstances and cannot know your heart, but I have felt similar pain, can empathize with where you are, and can say without any doubt that you are not alone. I hope you can follow my lead, choosing to stay one more day. I have made it 30 years longer than I thought I would, one day at a time. Offered with love...

Anonymous

My condolences for your loss tea! It's a real shame but having your feelings validated can really help with thoughts like this! Stay strong everyone! 🙌🏽

AudioFreak

My condolences, Tea. It's such a tragedy for everyone involved. The people left behind are left with a big hole in their lives and wondering if they should have been able to prevent it. 😢

Mike Taylor

Long ago when I was in high school, one of my classmates, whom I had known since first grade sat down one weekend, composed a very neatly written letter to her parents, and then shot herself. She was on course to be our high school valedictorian, but apparently the stress of being a perfect, straight A student got to her. Her grades started to slip and arguments with her family started. The church where her service was held was so packed they had to open all of the windows so the folks outside could be a part of it. What sucked was the fact that we had to argue with the school principal the Monday after she died to put the school's flag at half mast for her. More than that, though, it sucked that she thought death was the only way out. It's been decades and neither of us were that close, but I still stop and ponder "What if?" about her.

Josh Lambert

Thanks, sometimes I really need to remind myself of this. I'm sorry about your friend.

Anonymous

I'm so sorry about your friend.

Anonymous

I'm sorry about your friend Tea.

Travis Teague

You have a servant's heart Tea. I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my brother back when I was young, and I wish I could go back and tell him this. If you feel like there's no way out, please take a minute to just breath. You may not see it yet, but there will be a way for you to overcome this and become stronger than you've ever been 💛

Jeremy Knight

I'm sorry that your friend took his life. I've never felt this way but I've seen several people online who have and gone through with it. It's really depressing to think people have it so hard that they think what's the point of living.

Nathan Brown

Nothing in life really matters to me but I've never had the thought of suicide. I just do what I enjoy and that's pretty much how I live life. And then obviously I work to make sure I have money to do what I enjoy, so long as I have that I'm all set. Also I'm sorry to hear about your predicament Mrs. Tea. Also on a completely unrelated note, wouldn't it be funny if you were married to Mr. T, Given that he was straight?

Edward Leigh

I'm so sorry that happened Tea...just know that we're all here for you...and thank you so much for your kind words

David Frey

Thank you very much for that. Also my condolences for losing someone close to you. In a sense, I've struggled with depression since 1996, but was only clinically diagnosed in 2003, and dealt with the struggles again in 2008. My have mainly been due to feeling that not only does the present not have anything to look forward to, but the immediate future as well. At times, not even your family and close friends can inspire you to think differently (and that is if they are completely understanding. There are still those that believe that mental health is more about being weak, that "Oh, I dealt with worse things than you, so suck it up" or if a guy, "Man up" or "Grow some balls man" or that it's even imaginary, like addiction). I've sadly learned about its' effects a few years after I was diagnosed. I was on Facebook in 2010 (yes, I was very slow to the social media revolution, but mostly due to my job back in 2002 and 2003). I ran across someone who I had graduated high school with and friended her. One day I see her posting a photo of a guy we both went to high school with on her page. I had a class with him (American Lit) my Junior year and we had a laugh at him playing a corpse and me doing a terrible job as a mime (I had no clue what a mime was, so I was more doing sound effects. Lets just say the class were in tears laughing). He was also dating a young woman who I was friends with in the marching band, but broke up with her at the end of the year. I find out that after he graduated high school, he had married the current woman and had joined the Army and was stationed at Ft. Hood, Texas as part of cavalry. Around the time that the picture was taken, he was about ready to ship out for his overseas/high risk assignment in Iraq in 2004. Well, when he was done with that overseas tour, he wasn't the same. Not too long after he got back stateside, he hung himself in his barracks room, not the housing that he shared with his wife. People who commit suicide, even in the military, don't get special burials, special honors for having done an overseas tour, and their families don't get any kind of benefits (pretty much other than the possessions the deceased owned, they get nothing). She's fortunately doing better these days, having remarried a couple years after and has 2 kids, but I was also at Ft. Hood around that time (albeit briefly, more to go to Easter mass at the same church as then President Bush and his wife were at) and finding that out almost kicked my depression back in. I have even mourned the loss of a few celebs to suicide (Chris Cornell, Chester Beddington) and especially the suicide of Robin Williams (my comedy idol. Dirty and also clean humor, impressions, and being both a public and private person who was mainly about making other people happy. Other than his alcohol addiction, at times his life seemed to mirror mine, which made his passing hit home to me). There's never any one good solution to solve this (unless there comes a time where brain surgery can negate those sorts of feelings and illness linked to the likes of Alzheimers and dementia). All I can say is this: 1. Tell someone you trust that you're depressed. Whether it be a family member, friend, coworker, or anyone from the National Suicide Hotline (who will keep your information confidential), this isn't something to be done solo. Those who think they can just then have a much tougher time handling things. 2. Take it day by day. Anyone trying to think long term and sticking to the plan about this disease will be mistaken. It's sadly like the battlefield: you are fighting for your life every second. You can have the plan in place, but things almost never go according to plan. 3. No specific treatment is a 1-size-fits-all. To me, when I took medication, I felt major fatigue, and at times also felt even more depressed (even at times with them adding something to manage my anger management with my depression, I could still feel even more depressed). I also didn't want to get addicted to using pills to help whenever a tinge of sadness would occur that would just be momentary, not something that I considered to be the main cause of my depression. Therapists do help, although it's more dependent on actually talking. Some, you do wonder how they got their diploma, but as long as you are able to find someone to help you talk through the problems, you are on the right path. There are so many different ways to go with this, so find what works best for you. 4. If you can, give yourself a mental health day. Whether this means you go to a store to get a special item, order a meal from a particular restaurant, binge-watch tv, sit around your residence in your underwear, whatever. Sometimes that break allows you to reset, giving you a chance to reassess what needs done the next day. I thank you Tea for bringing attention to this. I hope you never have to feel these feelings again.

Frohawk

Very eloquently and kindly put Tea. And she's right, things won't get better if you kill yourself. I've been there too and it's that thought that stopped me. Keep looking after yourselves boys and girls.

Goldbrand

Look at you... You just lost a person, yet here you are, caring for other people. I'm so sorry for your loss. But I'm also once again amazed at how much compassion you have in you, even in moments when many would like to just disappear into a bubble. Your heart must have enough warmth to boil all the tea and melt all the cheese in the world. I hope our thoughts can help warm you in return. (I'm also sorry if joking is inappropriate right now. It's just one of my own coping mechanisms, I guess.) Also, she's right, folks. You have people around you that care, and if you're struggling it's important to let them know. We humans are really good at sugar coating everything to make it seem fine and dandy, and nobody wants to assume that their friends are struggling. Similarly, when you are struggling, it's easy to think that your friends "shouldn't be bothered by your personal issues". Which makes it difficult for people (especially dense idiots like myself) to notice the struggle. But please know that any friend would very much rather have a conversation about pain and hopelessness than being in pain over having no hope of any conversation ever again. And please, please, if you have the smallest inkling that something in a friend's behaviour is a bit off; talk to them. They might need it. "There is always hope." - Aragorn

rubynall

I know that feeling quite well, and while positive talk is helpful, sometimes it isn't enough. Logic and reasoning go out the window when one is in that dark place. In my personal experience, some kind of personal anchor is needed. Something that even the most raw of emotions will have trouble clouding up. I can't tell you what that is, sadly, as everyone is different. Until you know that person well enough to find that anchor, just be there and support them in any way you can. And for the love of God, DON'T trivialize their reason (or lack thereof) of their depression. It only further regresses them.

rubynall

Well said. I wish more people were understanding of depression, and I wish psychologists actually helped with the issue, rather than just band aid it up with medication. That was my experience, so I stopped going, and didn't take anything. Let me tell you. It's hard as hell. Not something I'd recommend, though, as it takes a lot out on you, and not everyone is strong enough and/or has strong enough family support. I've gotten better over the years, but man was it a struggle.

Anonymous

I hope these words can be of encouragement for anybody that needs it. It has been helpful for me the last 5 years. ( As long as one tries to take even one step toward the light, the human spirit can never truly... be defeated! )

Anonymous

Extremely thoughtful and caring to take the time out of your day to give strangers a positive outlook on life. Thanks 😁

Xandred_Bass

May your friend rest in peace

Jacob Griffith

I'm sorry for what you're going through Tea. Thank you for your kindness.

Eddy

Sorry for your loss. I hope you and everyone else who knew them is coping.

DrTaverner

I am so, so sorry, Tea.

Koriand'r

Being at sea 6 months out of the year takes its toll on the mind. I’d be lying if I haven’t thought about that option more than probably a dozen times in the past year. Every time I stop and I remember what happened to an old friend of mine that went that route. How I still see Facebook posts from his sister talking about how much she misses him still and how he didn’t need to go that far. Some people feel trapped and hopeless. That the only way out is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And that’s easy to say when you’re not actively feeling it. I hope no one that may read this actually knows what that’s like but I also know that’s probably unlikely. The Chaplain on my ship told me that no one is ever too far gone no matter how much it may seem like it. So if you do find someone that’s hellbent on taking their own life or very interested in it, they aren’t beyond help. Like you said, finding the anchor is crucial. For me it was my family but not everyone is close to or is on good terms with their parents or relatives. You have my condolences, Tea. No one ever wants to talk about the suicide epidemic.

Sinclair

Sorry you had to go through losing someone like that Tea, wishing you the best

KOR아홉

I'm sorry Boo. 💔 I wish that you could have reached out to your friend and prevented the worst from happening. NO MATTER HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF AT TIMES, JUST KNOW THAT YOU ARE HAPPINESS and I LOOK FORWARD TO YOUR LIGHT. YOU ARE LIGHT. YOU ARE LOVE. YOU ARE NECESSARY. Love u Boo. ❤

David Frey

In regards to Tea being married to Mr. T, would that make getting to destinations outside of the U.S. difficult cause as he would say "I ain't getting on a plane."

Dalton Remy

Thanks for the great message Tea, and I'm sorry to hear about your acquaintance. You have my condolences. For awhile I've felt tired of life. Like I was tired of living but scared of dying. It's a strange middle ground. If anyone else out there is in need of help, regardless of who or where you are, there are resources to help you. Here is a list of suicide crisis holines by country: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines I hope this may help people with getting help they need. Stay strong everyone!

Anonymous

As someone who is on the other end of your situation, it is hard to find a reason to keep moving. I appreciate you trying your hardest to be that reason, or carry people until they can find their own reason. My parents, the people who raised me from birth. Almost drove me to suicide... I couldn't take their yelling and mental abuse anymore. It took me reaching out to my brother for me to understand that at least one person cares. It was constant hounding, and impossibly high expectations, that led me to planning on ending it all. Worst of all, they are those kind of people who don't believe in mental illness. They have told me that I have no reason to be so upset all the time, that there were people with actual reasons to be depressed and they were still happy. Hearing those words echo in my head is irreperably damaging. For a brief moment I felt myself slipping. And the only thing that caught me was my brother standing up for me when my parents were yelling about sending me to my moms. (who is even more emotionally abusive) I really felt and still feel to some degree, that there is no point in toughing it out.

Eothelion Heart

You don't know me but I feel for you and understand where you are coming from and just as a stranger in the street (figuratively) let me give you this foolish digital hug. I'm sorry if this is weird but if you want to vent to a stranger just let me know. Sorry don't mean to intrude ofcourse, but just letting you know there are people out here willing to help and know what you're going through (to a degree).

Florian Fuhr

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