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Hey! So, things have been not-so-great for awhile for me. Maybe y'all don't care, maybe you do. If you do, this update's for you.

After dealing with miscellaneous health conditions for a long time that escalated into a full week of being dizzy, I broke down and went to the doctor. I found out that I have both hypothyroidism and bradycardia. Basically, my metabolism is non-existent and my pulse is unnaturally low (down to 30 bpm at times). Combine those two conditions and you have a pretty good recipe for being incredibly tired and mentally out-of-it all the time. I was also officially (but unsurprisingly) diagnosed with both anxiety and depression, so yeah, that's the cherry on top.

I spend a lot of time feeling burnt out from the minute I wake up, vacillating between numb and painfully tense, and it should come as a surprise to no one that these are not great conditions for producing new artwork. I'm doing what I can to improve my health with meds, lifestyle changes and more doctor visits, but it's not anything that's gonna get better overnight. I'm trying to find joy in life where I can. I'm doing my best.

Thanks to all y'all who've stuck around through all this, and no worries to anyone who hasn't or won't. It's all good. If I can't produce new art at a good clip, I don't blame anyone for not wanting to support me. Take care of yourselves first so you're still around to take care of others, do what you can to live a happy, healthy life, and have fun. That's all any of us can do.

I'll keep doing what I can in the meantime.

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Anonymous

Take care man.

Anonymous

Just feel better, that's what's important

Anonymous

Do what you need to do man. Taking care of yourself is always the most important thing.

Shanyl

I’ve been going through a very similar situation, so I can relate. I hope you get better man!

Akasen

Do take care man, been following you for years back when you were on Tumblr and I'll continue to follow you in the future

Anonymous

Take all the care you can! You can get through it!

ButterNut Squash

Here's to you getting on track to getting better

Anonymous

That's certain is a like to shoulder. I hope you recouver goes smoothly and you back to perfect health both physically and mentally sooner rather than later.

Michael Hawk

as long as i can sustain supporting you i will continue, no matter how frequent you post. you take care of yourself, thats whats important right now. get well Akai.

Anonymous

Thank you for keeping us in the loop about all this. As others have said, as long as I can, I'll gladly continue to support you, so take all the time you need - nothing comes before your own well-being, and though it's a tough road, you're doing your best, and that's all that matters. I hope you get better soon, and will gladly continue to support you!

Anonymous

Whatever little bit I'm contributing, I'll continue to do so. Hopefully things get better man.

Anonymous

Do it Just do it Don't let your dreams be dreams Yesterday you said tomorrow So just do it Make your dreams come true Just do it Some people dream of success While you're gonna wake up and work hard at it Nothing is impossible You should get to the point Where anyone else would quit And you're not going to stop there No, what are you waiting for? Do it Just do it Yes you can Just do it If you're tired of starting over Stop giving up

AznBrownie

Damn! I hope feel better soon!

Jak of Sol

Best of wishes to you for getting better. And always happy to help the best I can.

DeathWatch

I am having hyperthyroidism myself... So I guess I can somewhat relate. Your bradycardia is probably caused by your hypothyroidism, but I am not a doctor... My hyperthyroidism causes my heart rate to go over 110 constantly so I imagine the reverse is true for you. And as far as I know anxiety and depression can be caused by hypothyroidism too... My suggestion would be focus on your hypothyroidism first and the rest should go away or get relieved. DK where your live but if it is in USA consider upgrading your insurance plan, my doctor visit+blood test cost 400-600 USD each time before my insurance, and 40-70 after it. Hope you can get well soon!

M B

Well shit. I hope you manage to turn things around soon. Take care of yourself and get well soon!

Re-Maker

As someone who dances with depression as well, you have all my simpathy. Take care of yourself, and take your time with the art!

Spartan277

Depression is not something you're alone in. Take care of yourself. I've wondered where you've been but I'm glad to see you're doing ok.

GuillerMak

I don’t mind sticking around. Even if you don’t produce anything, your health comes first.

Anonymous

Your health is number one, man. I'll absolutely still support you, and sincerely hope that things improve for you. Thank you for being open with us, and I look forward to future updates whether it be about your art, health, or just whatever you're into right now (like music, games, another blue-haired waifu, etc.). Take care of yourself!

Jose

Wishing you the best and get as much R&amp;R as you need!

Anonymous

You're a good guy. Take care of yourself. Take it slow. Take it at a crawl. Feel good about relying on others, they care about you. You'll all get there together.

Yozuru

Hey man, all we can ever do in life is try our best. Good on ya to keep on keeping man. Your still producing all that art even when you're going through all that. You're definitely an inspiration to us all!

Dexter DePaula

Akai bro sorry to hear. Take care of your needs first. Do what you gotta do. :)