I never fit anywhere. (Patreon)

When I was younger, I met a bunch of BBW models in Toronto ON who I befriended. Many of them had websites and at least 1 made about 100,000 a year on hers. I was already taking photos of myself and meeting them made me move into a new direction. 

Previously I had been on suicidegirls.com in the Plus Size Women group posting what I do. I had great feedback but I wasn’t making at money. I had left Suicidegirls when a lot of other people did and as the community declined (in my opinion). But I still wanted to shoot, I just wanted to post for people who were looking for people and bodies like my own. 

So I got a web mistress and went on my marry way with my own website. But….I was always the one that was different. 

I wasn’t as big as the other girls. I wasn’t a “BBW” I was a “Plumper”. I was cute and I was making great content - meaning professional, well shot (for the time) photographs and I was fully nude. However, that’s not what the people on those boards etc wanted. They wanted fat fetish stuff. 

They wanted to see me eat 6 cheese burgers and down a huge bottle of coke in one sitting.

They wanted to see me jiggle all my fat while talking about how fat I was and how much I liked it. 

They wanted to see me weigh myself and consistently get fatter month after month.

They wanted to see me sit on loaves of bread and squish them. 

And I….wasn’t into that. So I kinda failed at that website. I mean, I had subscribers but for the most part everything I made from it went back into photo equipment, lingerie and renting hotels to make content. I didn’t make anything above and beyond because I didn’t want to fit into a specific box. 

I just wanted to be me and be naked and be proud of my body and take pretty photographs. 

So I did that - on tumblr. And I met Katie West and Jacs Fishburne and Echo Owen and so many others. I formed amazing friendships with amazing people and went all over the world to make beautiful photographs. And for the first time I felt like I found where I belonged. With the “creatives”. 

Fast Forward to now - I’ve lost my job due to Covid. I’m having an amazing time just making things almost every single day for Patreon and OnlyFans and in a perfect world I would continue to do that. I’m not making a ton, I’m subsidized by a government program. But I mean, this is the dream. I would love to do this! 

So great - you want to do this but you need a ton more subscribers in order to “make it” every month without this gov plan. Ok, so I create all this promo stuff, and I’m out there trying to find places to post about it. 

But I’m stopped in my tracks because every sub reddit, and every “BBW” I follow is the same as it was. It’s either FULL ON HARDCORE PORN or it’s highly Fat Fetish stuff. And….that’s not me. 

I keep trying to tell myself just to post my stuff anyways and see what happens but when I look at threads of fat chick showing their ass holes in horrible cell phone photos and I want to post things like above….everything just tells me that I don’t fit there. 

I’m not sure where to go to find people who would like what I make. I’m so blessed to have the people that I do. Who are respectful and nice and who message me about their lives and their families and are open to listening when I have something to talk about. 

…..where do I find more people like that? 

Or, do I have to sell out?