Ghosting (Patreon)

Good afternoon my dears! Sorry to spam your emails today but I wanted to go for making up on all my downtime what with work and the sickies. I decided to try something just a little bit different with a work I call " Ghosting" inspired by a song from P.SUS called " Isle&Fever - Far Away ( P.SUS remix ) which can be found here  https://soundcloud.com/p-sus/far-away-psus-remix

It's been a bit hard, you know? Some days while I'm doing something minor, or perhaps wandering at work, I'll catch myself in a field of static. As if I'm floating and it were all some terrible dream. I could lift my feet off the ground, I really believe I could. The rooms might toss and turn around me, and the people might shift and blur like smoke and shadows. 

I need to take a moment now and again to sit myself and my thoughts down. Some people ask me how I get beyond my problems and the things that grab at me. I do things like this, because contrary to how it may be believed, not all things go away so easilly, especially if they are meaningful. Thoughts can catch me with the most gentle of provoking or the right enough words and those words will find me " Did I do everything wrong again? " 

I'll settle aside the tears because I don't deserve that. No one does, right? I just do the best I can, and take every moment as it comes. To peer out and wonder of the future..belittles the present, and I wouldn't want to miss any of it, good or bad. The past is behind me, and the chains and conundrums of if and what could have been done differently is something left for..well..someone with a longer sleep. 

I have help too, now and again. Kind souls like yourselves who find me and whisper things to remind myself. Like beacons on an ocean, you direct me back from the strange depths I wander into on the tides, and help illuminate the possibilities, not the same questions over and over again until I drown.
Do the best you can. Value the present, appreciate the kindness of others because that is a gift that creates whole worlds and dreams anew. Otherwise you might find yourself...ghosting.