When the hopeless get in (Patreon)

Good evening my dears. I hope you all have been doing well today. It's been a bit weird for myself and I guess I've been a bit more depressed than usual.

You know the amazing thing about us? We're all consumers, but we're also converters and in that sense, able to transfer. I find one of the greatest things I can do when I feel like I've reached the edge and I'm staring off into the void, is to draw out those feelings, no matter how much I don't want to do that..or anything at all really.

The truth is that we never really know what we're made of until we take the steps to stare into the eyes of our own discomfort. I worked on this picture tonight when all I've wanted to do was  sleep and maybe pretend I wasn't here for a bit. It can be hard to say no to impulse especially when we don't feel right in our hearts and mind. I guess I've really felt disconnected for a bit. All the stress getting to me from everything that has happened up to this point.

But I also know the one mistake I could commit now more than ever is finding any one excuse to do nothing about any of this. To not question the way I feel or even try to understand more of my own anxiety. I feel hopeless right now, but I know that's just how I feel. There are many truths inside ourselves, and we have to decide which of those truths will be the ones we wake up to when we come around.

I don't think I'll be sharing this work with any of my galleries. I guess I just wanted this to be between me and you tonight. Don't let this post get you down though. This isn't about feeling down or feeling sorry. This is about acknowledging those parts of ourselves, trying to understand them, and revealing them however you can. To look at this is to look on the closest thing to a soul I feel.

Feel free to view the high res version if you wish it. You all take care tonight, and believe me, I'll come around eventually. All of us do and that is the whole point of it.