February Schedule & Plans (Patreon)

With the month of February, we’ve switched over to a subscription billing cycle and to a weekly schedule.

Detailed explanations can be found in this post and this post, including our company plans for the next few months.

*REMINDER: ALL WEEK 3 & WEEK 4 CONTENT MISSED IN JANUARY WILL BE FREE ON PATREON

K-POP SCHEDULE

Here’s what you can expect in FEBRUARY.

February 7th:

• Week 1 Schedule Drop [week 1 begins releasing immediately 2/8]
• MAMA or Melon Music Awards
• Taking requests for Week 2
• K-Pop/Drama/Anime FIRST tiers will lose access to January content and get access to February content!

February 14th

• Week 2 Schedule Drop [week 2 begins releasing immediately 2/15]
• Running Man EP 685: TXT
• Taking requests for Week 3
• Possible Livestream for PD’s birthday on the 19th will be announced/confirmed

February 21st

• Week 3 Schedule Drop [week 3 begins releasing immediately 2/22]
• JungKook 'GOLDEN' Live Concert & JungKook Appreciation Week Begins

ALL content specifically listed, will be dropping WITH the Weekly schedule. The Weekly schedule will contain everything I’ve worked on during the week. I say WORKED ON, because I won’t be filming 100% of the time and it may include things like backlog fixes. But the Weekly Schedule will range from variety reactions, documentaries, live stages, etc.

DRAMA & ANIME SCHEDULE

With Jujutsu Kaisen, SPY x FAMILY, and Alchemy of Souls ending for the GROUPY FIRST tiers last month, we are going to experiment with something.

The idea is having two flagship shows for both Drama & Anime on our Patreon. By “flagship” I mean that these are the dramas we are COMMITTED to both finishing AND binging, as soon as possible. That means binge watching these shows every week and every month. (Since we still have 3 animes going we won’t axe one of ‘em, don’t worry but instead probably try to finish it faster)

Meanwhile, I would more freely and casually react to other shows in my “free time” that just personally interests me and drop those as well. GROUPY FIRST would get the episodes a month early and DRAMA/ANIME FIRST the next month.

Of course, there’s a chance people might like it in theory but it might not work. If that’s the case, we can simply go back to 3 flagship dramas at a 3 episodes of each per month format, same for animes but with 4 flagship shows at a 3 episodes of each per month format in March.

THIS WILL ONLY AFFECT GROUPY FIRST this month. At the end of the month, we’ll check back in and see how everyone preferred the experience. I’ll be honest if it was a good or tiring or not an enjoyable experience for me as well, and we’ll move forward from the combination of both our reactions.

If we DO decide to pursue this method, DRAMA & ANIME FIRST folks will receive all the “extra” shows and episodes next month but know that they will not be “regular” shows but more so a “bonus reaction” that I filmed for fun.

So GROUPY FIRST tier! Prepare for the first episodes, aka the pilots of several shows as I start checking out stuff that’s really been on my “piqued interest” list!

Such as:

• BLOODHOUNDS
• APARTMENT 404
• DOCTOR SLUMP
• FLEX X COP
• D.P SEASON 1
• SKY CASTLE
• EXTRACURRICULAR
• THE GOOD BAD MOTHER
• SWEET HOME SEASON 2
• TOMORROW (the Rowoon one)
• REVENANT (the Kim Tae Ri one)
• AWAKEN (the Nam Goong Min one)
• AVATAR: THE LAST AIRBENDER
• YUYU HAKUSHO
• BAD & CRAZY
• GYEONGSEONG CREATURE
• BANANA FISH (anime)
• CODE GEASS (anime)
• KAKEGURI (anime)
• ONE PIECE (anime)
• ZOM 100 (anime)

I need to make it clear, this is all stuff I want to watch on a very VERY personal level, but that doesn’t mean I will react to EVERYTHING or even most of this list. (It’s literally impossible to do in a month) These are just the things that kept standing out to me over the past few months and are personal desires.

I will definitely check the first episodes out of some of the K-Drama related ones and put them out and gauge audience reaction, and depending on everyone’s reactions to my reactions (kinda meta) I will continue to pursue binging it as my relaxing show(s) but our flagships will always be my main priority.

This is also a great way to just do a pilot test to see what I like and what y’all like, in case we do just go back to our previous format of 3 dramas and 4 anime.

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My major priority is finishing the BACKLOG FIXES first. These first seven days THAT is my MAJOR priority along with filming Week 3 & 4 content, along with whatever interests me.

February 3nd (day after tomorrow) you will have your first major update on where we’re at in the backlog fixes. I am currently in a hotel in the mountains due to a private matter, and can do nothing all of today. I have quite literally brought all my contents, footage, and my computers and will be organizing and starting the gauntlet of making these fixes.

Tomorrow or the day after I will be driving back to Vegas, rest that day, and resume this the next day. We’re only going back for a month to start wrapping up things with our home. I am in the process of giving both my car and my home to my parents, so that their financial burdens are relieved, which relieves some of mine, and also because I will be moving to Korea this Spring on a semi-permanent basis.

I’ll be radio silent until the 7th, whence I’ll return with a backlog/most if not all fixes, and prepared content. Please understand that our 7th will be our LIGHTEST content push of the month, as backlog fixes are my TOP priority. Once it’s DONE, we’ll be picking things up for the 14th and 21st as I wanna relax by filming more.

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My primary goals for this month are as follows:

• Fixing all backlog content
• Week 3 LPs & Week 4 Content (these will be out for free)
• Award Shows
• More SEVENTEEN DINO
• SEVENTEEN x NA PD content
• Possibly finishing XTRA XTRA (I really like this and have been resisting the urge to binge)
• NCT DREAM (idk what, just NCT DREAM)
• LE SSERAFIM’s comeback
• ITZY
• CHANNEL_9
• TAEMIN
• Checking out the first episodes of a few different K-Dramas!
• YuYu Hakusho
• The first episode of FLEX X COP (my Ahn Bo Hyun thirst is real)

Those are my primary goals. Specifically, it’s what my heart yearns for. I’ve been through a lot the past few months and these are just some things my heart has been yearning for/missed/needs in order to “heal” and “recharge”.

This does NOT mean this is the “only” content or groups I’m reacting to.

What INTERESTS me are as follows and even then I’ll still be watching things that don’t follow under both of these lists: TMAP, LeeMujin, Bang Yedam’s debut & more

• KISSOFLIFE
• IVE
• TWS
• RUN BTS
• EL7z
• (G)I-DLE (these thumbnails?????)
• Billlie (I specifically got a lot of nerves regarding Billlie and became extremely embarrassed because their PD wants to get to know me and has been wanting to meet with me. I confessed these feelings and reached back out and plan to pick his brain about managing and producing a K-Pop group. We’ll see what becomes of this if anything)

I wanna make it clear, everything I listed, unless it is specifically part of our 7th, 14th, 21st schedule, these are just me telling you what’s on my mind and my heart this month. That doesn’t mean I’ll do EVERYTHING (which I might) because new contents may come up or interest me. So wait until the 7th and check out the first weekly schedule!

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Before we move forward I’ll say this one last thing:

Some people are mad at me and some people are mad for me. Both sides are right. The only person in the wrong here is me.

Because at the end of the day, things have been disappointing for folks because my mental health hasn’t been right for several years and it’s been severely impacting my workflow. I appreciate and am extremely grateful to those who have defended me or have shown me empathy. But I’m grateful to the people who are just as equally frustrated with me.

Life is a balance. I hate “Yes Men” but I also hate “Enemies”. A perfect system is a mix of both, and in that way, this Patreon, the audience—you all, are perfect. The fact that people are reacting in both ways is proof that the Patreon and my audience, has brought the RIGHT people. I’m not mad nor vilifying any of my Patrons, not a single one. The monthly schedule, the pressures on my mental health, all of that is MY fault. And yes, you should be empathetic to people with mental health struggles but speaking for me personally—I’ll just say this: You don’t have dirt poor mental health because you made all the RIGHT decisions; y’know? Deep down, I’ve known this is the change I needed but I was too scared to make the change. Because change is scary.

I view your words as constructive criticism, sure for your own happiness, but if you really wanted to be happy you wouldn’t bother with a comment and just leave. The effort of being on this Patreon, signing up, and BEING BOTHERED ENOUGH to leave a comment, from anyone: good or bad, I see now as I practice true mindfulness, is just caring enough to want me to make you happy. And I’m acknowledging your ire and expressing both my appreciation of it and your presence here.

I feel as though I’ve put together a good community. It’s just time for me to step up and be a better Leader.

For the past 4 months I’ve been solidly working on my mental health one step at a time and this was the last scary leap I had to make. I promised months ago that I will your loyalty back—and while it’s seemingly been “business as usual” up front or even continual failings, I’ve been busily preparing all this time and I hope this month will bring about that same joy. Killing my people pleasing side, setting healthy boundaries… That has always been harder to me than just sitting there and being a PRODUCER, and figuring out my 10 year plan and how to better evolve my work process. The latter has always been easier than the former.

I dealt with A LOT privately the past 4 months. We just jumped over our last hurdle as well, and I’m ready to begin my new life. I’ve reached a point where I no longer care about anything else. I only care how much I have compromised my own ethical standards and disappointed, frustrated even a single person. My goal as a person is to always create Net Zero Suffering, and I lost sight of my initial goal.

That is why I am not changing the work or business aspect of things, I have to change the psychology of this Patreon. It became too much about “the work, money, bills, service, etc.” I personally have always hated a 9 - 5 and instead this became a 6 - 10, of my own free will. It’s about the journey, bringing joy, and becoming a form of therapy for people once again.

I thought I had “accomplished” my dream 2 years ago: Bringing people happiness with video. Capturing those rare and honest moments. So I got caught up too much in “but what do I want to do?!”

But MKBHD recently made a video about burnout, and my sister advised me something similar. MKBHD said, “Live your dream; deliberately” so many content creators get “caught up” in becoming way too much of a business and to be “bigger”, it effectively loses its soul or steam which is why so many people quit. But how can I quit my dream “job”?

My sister told me as long I’m happy doing what I do, don’t feel so rushed to do something I love or is a passion. Take it one step at a time and hopefully it will get there.

So I am merely setting the Weekly Schedule boundary as means of living my dream deliberately. Forcing myself to check in on you guys and see what you want. I gave myself too much work, trying to keep on top of ALL the comebacks, having anxiety if I forgot anything—when in reality, I can just simply sit down and chat with y’all and ask “What’s up and new in the K-Pop realm?”

This is about shifting the psychology of this Patreon. The new changes have definitely caused a stir, rightfully so, as progress often means having to change or evolve because the way of the past wasn’t working.

I am quietly and deliberately living my dream job, but it is still a job, not my dream. I have been so shy about my dream projects, but quite literally REACTING all these years—and you all, have given me the confidence to not only quietly and slowly ACTUALLY take each step to work on my making my dreams come true but to believe in myself.

I’m an incredibly private person, by choice, but at the end of the day, deep down I’m more similar to people like Park Gun Wook or thick headed simple kids with a dream like Gon. I wear my heart on my sleeve but my choices to be private are just trauma responses that I’m letting go of and actively working to counteract.

I’m making deliberate and conscious choices now to actually share progress of my dream projects, though they may take years before seeing any real progress, this is my first step in building this to be a more appropriate hybrid of being both a business and an artist to fan relationship. An artistic business.

I love you. Be happy. Live your dream everyday.