12 hours later: Share your stories (Patreon)

My last post was at 10AM.

I had the day off and I spent it doing what I wanted, relaxing—and it was peaceful. But 12hrs later and I’m reeling.

I deal with what’s called autistic burnout.

I’ve been dealing with this every night for nearly 3 years and have kept it a secret from everyone in my life.

I wanted to go to bed at 9PM but it’s 11PM now and the longer I’m up, I get anxiety because I know this will throw me off time, and I will wake up late or tired so it’ll make all my videos worse tomorrow or I can’t film as much and then everyone will think I’m a bad person.

I am trying to choose the healthy option. I’m trying not to spiral.

But I am alone now in Korea. I have no one. I have no support system, and I am just alone and trying very hard not to spiral.

This is what I deal with every second of my life and have dealt with my entire life.

But being honest about who I am has really helped me to at least be brave and tell people when I need help.

My hope is to never need to do this but I have neglected my autism for 16 years by hiding and denying it so I need some help.

I think it would be nice to read some lovely comments. I have been begging people in my life to tell me about their day for years but no one ever does. For me it really brings me healing to hear about someone’s day.

So tell me about your day; or depending on where you are—your plans for the day. Or whatever else you have on your minds! Everything and anything fascinates me.

Thank you in advance.

Will delete later when I feel better.