Checking in <3 (Patreon)

Hello everyone, I hope you're doing well this not so spooky season. More importantly, I hope you're safe, and that your family is safe and everyone is okay. It's been a minuteish. In my last post I covered the broken pc, my intense burn out and mental issues, and kinda stepping back both to work on mental health, see doctors, and cause I can't edit anything either at the moment xD.

I don't have any huge updates, yet, regarding my health, I just know that my mental health has deteriorated, I've learned there's other things going on in my brain, and, nervous system? I don't know the words, I'll be seeing a brain doctor soon, so that'll be scary, I've run into an issue(another one I Mean) where something is effecting my ability to talk, and move, it's more erratic, and my speech is slurred and I say the wrong words, I'm also incredibly self conscious about it and haven't really spoken a lot, I just don't want to sound like an idiot, so thats something I'm figuring out.

I'm so sorry that I'm not doing stuff right now, I know it's halloween season, I'd usually be pumping out creepypastas, but, I don't want to do that segment, I want to do something that makes me feel something, while simultaneously not having the heart or ability to do anything about it right this second, I'm a work in progress :'3.

Thank all of you though, for being understanding, and patient with me, and I wish patreon would ship out your shirts it's killing me ;-;, I hate myself, that's not an attitude, or a passing feeling, it's just how I am because of being bullied for 13 years, never grew a self esteem, trying to find it, for what that's worth, but it's difficult, still I'm working on it, and just, thank you all, for putting up with my bullshit. Other creators just make videos, or have actual problems that aren't in their brain, I really do wonder what it's like to be normal, it's either really nice or horrible, wouldn't mind experiencing it just once though, I will return to you, like a phoenix, with something my heart can go into, or like, a review or something, and will unleash so much pent up sarcasm that it's eating me up inside.

Regardless of my health, I'll always be here, the one place I belong. I love you all, thank you again, I'm sorry again, stay safe during these uncertain times, message me if you want, everyone has that ability but it never happens :'3. Have a nice day and or night, depending on your time zone, and until next time, this is Yuriofwind speaking in the third person :3. *hug* <3