Kay (plus personal psa) (Patreon)

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In other news, I hate even putting this on Kay’s post BUT two birds, or I’ll forget - Things have gotten worse with the situation with my grandma (did I tell y’all my grandma went to the hospital last week? I don’t remember) and... idk what’s going to happen or what to do to help her, but we’re going to make a trip out to see her tomorrow (we’ve been staying away from house visits with our older relatives because of COVID so she hasnt seen any of us since March) but the way they’re talking, this might be our last chance to go spend time with her.

im not. Handling this well. Just for the record. And I try to push the bad feelings aside by diving headfirst into my work, but even then, this has set me back on Lucky! Stuff this week so episode 29 probably definitely won’t be finished before the 10th like I had originally scheduled. There’s so much of me that wants to pack up everything and take Eli and go stay with her to help her until the end, because she doesn’t have anyone there to care for her, and like... my mom is there right now, but my mom is Bad Trouble (if you know, you know...) so none of us feel great about this but Ant has to go back to school on Monday and we only have the one car, and there’s no cell service OR internet out at my grandmas so I wouldn’t be able to do any of my usual work and.

this whole thing just sucks. So, one day at a time. The best we can do right now is make the trip to see her tomorrow and cherish that. I really was one second away from going over there tonight, but Anthony talked me down from it so. Idk. I feel like we all need time to deal with this and do whatever we can to be there for her, but we’re all so far away and I just feel like once my grandma is gone, I’m gonna be fully detached from my family.
y’all just wish me luck or pray for my grandma or whatever it is y’all believe in, she‘s a saint and the only person in my family who knows me for ME, and loves and accepts me for all of the things I’m too scared to tell the rest of my family. When she’s gone, idk what I’m gonna do,

sorry for putting this on your post, Kay, I’m just throwing something here now before I get distracted with the rest of this dkdhjdj