Commission Complete - Jayme (Patreon)

Idk, I don't want to jinx myself or anything, but I feel like I'm getting a little bit more excited about doing work everyday. I have a piece I'm finishing today that's going to be REALLY cool, and if that's done on time, I'm gonna try to squeeze in 1-2 more (If I have the stamina) and idk, it just. Feels good. I like playing with new art techniques. I like checking things off my lists. I know I'm still ages behind on a lot of things, but I feel like if I can keep this pace up -even if it's just one small thing on my sick/bad days- I'll be getting a lot done.

I always say stuff like this, which ends up being a huge jinx on my productivity, buT I'm going to be optimistic and say that this is going to be the start of a new wave for me. I'll still have bad days, I'm sure, and I'll still be stressing over finances and baby, as per usual, but the goal is to not let that render me useless. The goal is to keep creating, as long as my health allows it, and putting stuff out there. The more I finish, the more available I can be to take on new work to cover bills and save more.

I'm rambling, yes. I tend to do that on some of these posts. I do it a lot on twitter too. I think it's the idea that someone will read this and that one person will know where I'm at and what I'm planning to do, and that idea helps me keep myself accountable. If I just say it out loud to myself, it doesn't really count. Saying it where other people can read it feels like a promise, in a sense. Like, "Okay, Chris, you said you were going to stay productive and optimistic, so we're gonna hold you to that."

Thank you guys for being here with me through my ups and downs. More downs than ups it seems, but I'm gonna cherish these bursts of energy and make the most of them.