OKAY HERES WHATS BEEN GOING ON (Patreon)

You know how I said I’d tell y’all something that’s been going on with me lately and why exactly the past couple of months have just been pure hell for me? Well, my family and closest friends know, so I might as well tell you guys now. (Because most of my other friends are here and I’m not ready to make a huge, public announcement tbh. This might be the only place I talk about it.)

There are some things I need to go over first.

1.) This entire situation is making me incredibly dysphoric. Finding out catapulted me into a really bad mindset and I spent nearly an entire month going through all the stages of grief cause I genuinely didn’t feel ready for this. I don’t want any “pros” or “cons”. I don’t want to be treated differently or looked down upon. Just cause life took an unexpected turn doesn’t mean I’m changing or my art journey is changing. There’s just going to be a few more hiccups along the way.

2.) I seriously don’t want anyone outside of this group to know. You all don’t know who is or isn’t a patron, I don’t think, so don’t discuss this with anyone outside of the community page/comment section on this platform. Please don’t assume you know all of my friends and who I may or may not have told. You don’t know if I’ve had a falling out with someone and I don’t want them to know or something like that. This is my business. I’m only sharing here because Patreon was one of the first things majorly affected by this down period and I owe y’all an explanation of that and potential delays in the future. (Fingers crossed: hopefully not many.)

3.) Lastly: you can ask questions! I’m mostly okay with it at this point because I have an incredible support system, between my friends and my pup and my spouse. If it weren’t for them, I’d still be wallowing in self pity over something that I want to be more excited about. I’ll do my best to be open and honest here with delays and health updates IF anything comes up that might take up my time and/or energy moving forward. (Of course, all of this also explains the jumbled commissions and adopt mess that suddenly piled up AGAIN mid-October yikes).

So... the thing is: The family is getting a little bigger next summer. ;;

And no, we’re not getting another dog. Sobs. I’m gonna be a real parent. Like. A human kid. A weird, alien baby is on the way I guess. If you know me, you can probably guess how angry/upset I was when I found out, but we’re warming up to the idea now so. Cool? Lol. But THAT is why I’ve been feeling really sick/lethargic all the time, and why I was so distressed and distant for a while there. I just want more dogs, not babies. Lmao. But thank the gods for my friends and Ant for walking me through processing this and encouraging me when I just felt hopeless and unsure.

Shit happens.

...Literally. 😅