in the river - solace in the waters upon receiving more shocking news (Patreon)

getting naked in any body of water is what truly soothes my soul... these images were taken a few days ago in the river near my house... A few days ago, I was told that I have to move out of my studio / gallery living space. Obviously, I was devastated at first, and in many ways I still am. I finally started to feel settled here after a year and a half of officially moving into the space & settling in after a big break up last year. Although there was so much darkness surrounding this area, memories drenching the walls and feeling heavy in the air, I still found solace in having this space… after moving every few months to every year for the past 10-15 years, it was so liberating to feel like I finally had a space to work on my art, to dance, to play, to work through life. Its funny how life works though, when you think there’s only one thing that is stable in your life, that one thing is sometimes the most unstable… things can change in a minute. Sometimes that in which we believe is the most secure is actually the most volatile. This is a recurring theme. I believe the lesson is to truly surrender. To allow myself to embrace the complete loss of control. In the meantime, I will be finishing up projects & deadlines as I prepare to move out of New Paltz. I may stay with friends for a little bit and travel to Europe this fall, and maybe travel the country this coming year before going back to school next year for my MFA. Everything happens for a reason. I’m so scared to embark on a nomadic life, as my moon is in cancer, and the feeling of home is so important to me, however, I also think that this is a great test and lesson for me to truly find home in my body and mind. Home and safety is a state of mind, it is the people that we surround ourselves with, the thoughts that live in the cave of the mind. Every time I start to panic, I remember that the world or the universe never presents us with something that we cannot handle, I will miss being able to wake up, work on my computer, dance around the apartment, taking breaks between my physical artwork, my digital work, and moving my body. That being said, I know there are spaces around the world where I can do similar things, and I’m just going to lean in to the complete unknown as I try to push through fear and focus on love each day.

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