2015 Manchester-by-the-Sea (Patreon)

I'm uploading these again, as it has been a while, and I'm trying again to organize my archives (sorry to those of you who have seen these but here are new words and thoughts). It is so crazy to look back and see how self-conscious I used to be. I thought I was so fat and only felt comfortable modeling from 100-200 feet from the camera. Wow! How times have changed... so crazy. I took this series with Kahil, a friend at the time who liked me and wanted to date however I wasn't attracted to him yet I was living with him due to a very crazy series of events. It was so complicated. I was so depressed. I remember getting almost black-out drunk in the kayak with a bottle of Knob Creek Whiskey on the way to this island to shoot, to the point I passed on on the island before paddling back in just as it got dark.... I am so grateful to be in a different head space now. Times are difficult in a different way now, but at least I'm not reliant on substances and immersed in the world of substance abuse anymore. So grateful for my friends and family who caught me when I fell down so many times. Who picked me back up when I thought my life was over. 

Dark times.