money for sex (Patreon)

20_11_20

today i was offered money for sex… then when I said I wasn’t comfortable, I was offered money for implied sex for someones personal photography collection. I’d said I’d have to think about it. I’m comfortable with art nudes pushing the boundaries of erotic, but I’m not comfortable with a lot of what this person was saying. i do need money. I’m trying to stay true to my self and not sacrifice my morals for a few thousand dollars. I feel a moral imperative to stay true to my art… if that means I can’t pay rent then thats ok with me. I told him that I feel like I’m worth more, that I wouldn’t take a few thousand dollars for what he was asking. I told him I’d need at least 20k to even entertain this idea (but knowing deep inside that I still wouldn’t be able to do this kind of work). I don’t have enough scorpio in my chart… or perhaps i have too much sexual trauma for someone like me who is super sensitive. He said to think about it, but before hanging up the phone he warned me that I shouldn’t value myself too high or i’d miss out on opportunities like this. i just smiled to myself and laughed inside. He texted me just now that he will not work with me and that he will not be working with my friend either who referred me to this photoshoot opportunity. Sometimes I speak too much. I try to hold back but i can’t. maybe its my aries rising, maybe its just my brain or the way i was raised. It is during moments like this that I’m so grateful that I speak my mind.. the world is on fire, and still the men in finance think they rule the world. I’m so excited for the system to burn. I won’t do sex work. I can’t. I need to stay true to my nude in nature / we are the earth narrative. If anything, I have been thinking of pushing the boundaries of sexual imagery in nature, staying consistent with my nude, timeless, primitive, natural theme. More to come on this soon. I want to wait for a museum show to expose this content and vision. Thank you to everyone who supports my patreon page, my vision, collaborations, photoshoots, investors, etc…. thank you to all of you who believe in me, make me stronger, and who make it possible for me to survive, or at least get by without having to work with manipulative predators like the one i spoke with today. I hope that any woman or man reading this realizes their value and won’t have sex for a few thousand dollars if that makes them uncomfortable. It is so sad that the world is now so broken, so many of us so broke, that these are common conversations, temptations, and realities.

(these images are self-portraits that i took in 2018 in Colorado at Great Sand Dunes National Park)