god is a woman (Patreon)

i am addicted to light, to the sun…. the one place in time and space where I am truly happy is in the sunshine. i have to move out of my apartment as soon as possible. i am being evicted but thankfully evictions have been halted until december so i have some time to find a new place. i need to find a way to make money. all of the money that i was blessed with went to replacing my front tooth — a surgery i’ve been saving money for now for over ten years. i was finally mentally and financially prepared to go through this process earlier this summer, so i decided to invest in my health. i’ve always been self-conscious about my smile, by body and mind. now i feel good. i feel like i can finally smile and breath, be, and allow my skin to soak in the sun fully alive, healthy and happy. i’ve also been blessed with a person and people in my life who i love and who are fully supportive of my being.

i had an amazing weekend soaking in the sun with loved ones, hosting a guest, taking and modeling in photos, dancing naked on the fire escape, embracing freedom and warmth. a man was staring at me from the street below me, so billy spoke to him and described that “god is a woman” and that we must respect them and honor them… honor mother earth. here i am, one with the earth, feeling the sun, thy self. life is but a dream, to which he said, so then can death be sleep? i have been given the gift of time recently, with which i’ve been diving deep in to the mysteries of life, and allowing myself to take in new and old information, that which rings true to my soul… allowing myself to breathe and rediscover and redefine my reality.

all is part of the same cycle, we are all one, part of the cosmos, rhythms of the earth. i feel so grateful to be in the flow. although so many days are hard on my mind, when the stress of money and changing living environments comes to me, i return to my meditation, to my body, movement, and filling myself and loved ones with nutrients. I’ve been taking much space to myself during these past few weeks of extreme change and energetic, astrological chaos. chaos magic. chaos mode. however one may define life or see or experience these times, i think we can all agree that the current state of affairs is unprecedented, and that empathy and an open heart are the most important things at this time. I’m truly optimistic about life, about these times and those to come… however i do need financial stability. if you or anyone you know is or would like to be an angel investor, please feel free to reach out to me. I want to buy a piece of land upstate or somewhere outside the city, where I will be able to cultivate the earth, walk in the dirt, play with plants, speak to trees, and share the magic of mother earth with others. I have a tribe of humans which is coming together with clarity who are ready to help build a place of light and life with me. I’m so grateful to be in the city. this is also home. i love it here, however at this time, we need land. we need mother earth. we need to implement regenerative agriculture on all land possible to support and sustain ancient traditions and wisdom.

i will be working on a business plan / proposal in the coming weeks to help portray and communicate my vision… in addition to my art, collaborations and other ideas and ideals. i hope and pray that by putting out this piece of my imagination into the universe, and by being, existing in and embracing the magical realm, that these dreams may come to be with ease, truth and beauty.

thank you for reading and supporting me. I hope to be able to give back all that I’ve received and more as time moves on. i hope that you’re all enjoying these last warm days before the cold comes, and that you too try to embrace the seasons and change.