what I'm planning with art going forward (Patreon)

 I have been thinking on making a post about how my relationship with art has been going for a good while now and what I'm planning going forward! I even thought of doing something like a recording to see if I could follow some kind of stream of conscience... 

 But I guess I'll take the opportunity, I'm tired from carnaval, am alone at home, and also on a writing mood so I'll make it now.

 ...............Me from 1 hour in the future here LOL. Oh gosh it's so difficult to express it. Life's just a big strange mess. Guess multiple sclerosis gets jumbled into it, and so much of art stuff is directly tied to my self worth... I can try articulating deeper at it another time. For now I'll try to cut all the excess and go to the most hm... "practical" points.

 I have been trying a lot to work stuff out at therapy. My therapist brought up a very interesting point to me. Creating things, like the comics I have done the last 2 years and other original projects you see and support me here like the constellations project from way back into 2018, is a hobby. Now, working on commissioned artwork to another another person,  is my work. It is necessary of me to separate those two.

 After graduating back in 2016 I was pretty much lost on what to do with life. I always knew how to draw so I kinda tried my hand at it as an opportunity for my independence. I'm not at the most ideal place or anything. But I think it kinda worked out... 

 With time and experience I started to think that maybe, I could try making original content. But... Self-worth... desirability... connections. But that's the can of worms we can open at a later time.

 Creatively over here I'm starting to conceptualize tiny short projects. I'm feeling bit by bit more comfortable with drawing by the day with the help of work I've been getting, so I think I can try my hand on things like this again. One of the projects in my mind is one called "Por favor, Doutor! (PLEASE DOCTOR!)". I look forward to you meeting the doctor and the nurse. Welp. Now that I brought this up I'll have to fullfil it....

Thanks for listening! I've been here roughly 3 hours lol....... But I had to make an update regarding it and I postponed it long enough!!! oof.........