(update) Need your help with content related input! (Patreon)

 Hey everyone!

 I have been feeling very bad about art in recent times. Multiple sclerosis has taken a big toll in my mental health overall but dang, art.......

 I thought about this a lot, and as you guys are a big part of my support network, it felt appropriate to share a bit on my thoughts. Maybe I'll feel better!

 Before talking about it, I wanted your help steering my creative input, and I made some suggestions to vote. You can message me as well. I haven't been feeling the urge to do anything to be honest so I thought that could be productive!

 I have been feeling like my art has been degrading in quality somehow, I keep looking at old art and thinking how everything I do now is ugly by comparison. 

...And I don't feel compelled to create. Doing commissions has been helpful regarding that because it's like I'm lending my hands to another's head. Ah, and ofc I'm able to get funds to pay bills and etc. makes me feel less of a fraud.

 Apparition has a big part on this too. I know it's nice to keep expectations low for personal projects, but the sheer way apparition has underperformed broke my heart irreparably honestly. Not even closer people like friends were able to enjoy it or say something nice about it. I have one page left to close this chapter and I'll power through it, but I feel I don't want to invest more time on it for now. You guys saw the prep work and everything... I've never invested energy like this in anything in my life. sigh.............................................. thanks for supporting me regarding it.

 I feel like I can't pick a creative direction by myself for now, so your help could be valuable!