Update 31: Reflection (Patreon)

Yes that's probably the first time I've 're-used' a title for my updates, but it seems apt. We run in cycles and the end of the year is always a good time to look back and reflect on where we are and what I've learned.

This time last year I was moving into my first year focusing on this project of mine full time, I was hopeful, and apprehensive at the same time.  

I spent a lot of time trying to plan it out as best as I could, this was, to me, the breakout moment: It's quite a lot to abandon the security of a regular paycheque for the promise of freedom, both creatively and financially.

But abandon it I did and, it was scary!  It changed my life forever, and I'm so very glad I did it.

Everyone asks the question, 'If you won the lottery, what would you do?'

It's a fun thought experiment and discussion to have amongst friends, though most of my life my answer would have been something along the lines of 'I'd buy a bigass house and nice car and sit in it living off the interest and just do fucking nothing'

Well, this time last year, I won the lottery, figuratively, I had been handed, by many thousands of generous individuals, financial freedom. 

And, it was at the moment that... I paid off credit cards I'd had hilted for months, and saw my bank account with the most money it's ever had in it: period. 

I realised, that wasn't my dream anymore.

I really couldn't stand to do nothing, the pull of expressive freedom this medium I was slowly coming to master was allowing me Is a drug I couldn't put down, I had to improve it, hone it. 

It's great to have passion, but it can be a curse too.

I had to find balance between realising this vision and keeping my own sanity, I learned things about myself, realising where my limitations lie and recognising where I still had room to grow.

It's a big ego boost to have something 'blow up' like this, so that had to be managed too, something I handled pretty poorly in retrospect.

Therapy and regular exercise are wonderful things, however. As I head into this next year, more physically and mentally capable than I've ever been before, I can't help but get excited for what's on the horizon.

Things moved slower than I thought they would... I wanted to return to the mainline story this year and get back into getting some of that storyline focused lore heavy episodes, but I found myself at conflict with increasing 'business like' concerns.

I think anybody would agree that

If you had the choice between something you maybe wanted to do, and something that would definitely make sure you make a tonne of money, you would at least have to think about the decision.

Because it's not like I wanted a yacht or anything, that money represents opportunity, development, improvement.

So the focus reared around and I found myself torn between wanting to 'please the crowd' and 'play  up to the algorithm' and 'garner mass market appeal' rather than use the medium for the freedom of expression it once provided.

Don't get me wrong, I'm proud of every one of the projects I completed over the year, I learned a lot from each one, and I like to think I improved and honed my skills during that time, but that itch remained to finish the story I'd started.

I had to weigh that want alongside my need to ensure it was rendered in the way that, to me, it needed.

It wasn't until the later stages of the year I started making the kind of contacts necessary to properly realise that vision, and I started to see the threads of potential that improving technology, and the right help can bring.

Having a properly custom mesh that was professionally rigged has been on my wish list since I started with this project, but finding the right level of help took some time. 

And now here we are, at the apex of the turn.

The model has been coming forward in leaps and bounds recently, and it is very nearing production ready, I do not think it is an exaggeration to say it is the most advanced model that's been created for the purpose of rendering pornography. 

Like seriously, Hollywood studio's don't go this hard.

Alongside a blossoming writing team and our asset artist working night and day tirelessly to develop exciting new scenes, I can promise that when it comes to quality, the best is yet to come.

Most of the teams energies have been focused on the creation of a new scene to display this new technology, but since this is the first time setting such a project in motion, there's a lot of work to get it ready, hence why at least for the last few months we've been exploring some old scenes with reimagined scenarios, biding time for the next big thing. 

With these tools, assets and models it will allow me to return to the core storyline, and we can get into the really deep lore, and show you all the fun scenario's we have planned.

So all going well (also the TLDR)

Expect a mix of Futa, Female and Male content this year, with some reimagining of previous ideas, and and ever increasing passion for the endless pursuit of perfection.

Expect us to see something from the main storyline

Next up is female, cause the girls have been left out for too long now, and that needs fixing. 

I'm working on a centralised archive of all the works which may or may not be available either within the next few hours or possibly in a couple weeks when I return from my break, This will help obtaining my content easier and prevent some of the issues some people have been having with accessibility through mega, and allowing new joiners to get caught up with the available content.

I'll be re-branding somewhat, with some new logo's, typefaces and colours. We should also launch the website this year, which will act as a hub to collate lore, content, projects and host my monthly ramblings.

For now, I bid you all adieu, and once again thank you all for your immense support that makes both my dream, and your fantasies real.

Thank you.