hopeless. depression. useless. (Patreon)

at this point i think i need to give up. they deleted my other youtube channel. my personal youtube channel. that had all of my bts, monsta x,seventeen concert videos, my old concert videos from when i saw one direction. my everything. my whole channel. they literally didnt let me have time to save anything. i'm so heartbroken. those are things i can't get back.  without any warning. i just used that channel. this is useless. i have no hope. i spent a week downloading all the videos. HOURS of content. a WEEK. I literally canceled plans to save these videos. and they deleted the whole channel. idk what to do. and most people didn't subscribe from the old channel. is it even worth it, probably not.  i'll try one more time for the new txt and twice comebacks, but the old videos are all gone. i love making these reactions so much. kpop means so much to me and the reactions were my only way of talking about the groups and artists, i have no friends that enjoy kpop in person so it truly was my happiness making the videos. i barely made money from them, literally 100$ a month if that. i just liked making the videos...why does youtube hate small creators. i understand i used other content. I wasn't posting the reactions they took down. i was just posting the ones that were okay.